Friday, June 8, 2012

Thank You

If tears could build a stairway, and memories a lane, I'd walk right up to heaven and bring you HOME again.
No farewell words were spoken, no time to say goodbye. You were gone before I knew it, and only God knows why.
My heart still aches with sadness, and secret tears still flow. What it means to lose you no one will EVER know.
But now I know you want me to mourn for you no more; to remember all the happy times, life still has much in store.
Since you'll never be forgotten, I pledge to you today: a hollowed place within my heart is where you'll ALWAYS stay.
-Author Unknown.

Dear Blogville,
Nola and I cannot thank you enough for all your kind words, support and love about baby Charlotte. Truly, you all are amazing, and mean so much to us. I want to say a special thank you to Lily BelleThe Dachsies With Moxie,  The White Dog ArmyPuddlesMinnie and Mack and Marley for their beautiful tribute posts. Words can't describe the feelings you gave us with your heartfelt words.
You, Blogville, have made this terrible tragedy almost bearable. We can feel your love and support all around us, and it means the world to us. I tried to thank every one of you personally, but if I didn't get to you: Thank you.
The amazing people at Zoolatry made this photo of Charlotte, and it will forever stay in my sidebar.

We're holding on. It hasn't really sunk in yet that she's gone. Every time I call the dogs in from outside, I stand at the door waiting for Charlotte. When I put down food bowls it breaks my heart that I only put down three. When I come in the front door, I don't see Charlotte's happy little body curled into a wiggling C shape. When I get up at 1am to get a snack, only Nola follows me while Auggie and Boston stay in bed.

I miss her. I miss her soft fur, her too big ears, her happiness. I miss the way she and Nola would play together for hours. I just miss her. I was there while she was coming into the world and I held her as she left it.  Every time I think of her I cry, and Nola's right there, worried and whimpering. It's not FAIR!!!! Why Charlotte? Why such a young, beautiful dog?? I feel like I should have done more, got a second opinion, something. I'm not trying to have a pity party, I just need to vent.

All the dogs know something is wrong, but it's most pronounced with Nola. Charlotte was Nola's shadow from the minute she could walk, and her and Nola formed a close bond. As I type this, Nola is sitting and staring at me, in the exact spot where Charlotte passed. Nola has been very quiet today, and even more clingy then normal. She hasn't tried to beat up Auggie (this is incredibly out of character), she hasn't wanted to play with her toys. The way my pack was, it was Boston and Auggie and Nola and Charlotte. Nola doesn't have much of a bond with either of them, and I can tell how much she misses her shadow. NOLA: I miss my puppy. From now on, what used to be Saturday Smiles or Sibling Saturday on the blog will now be Charlotte Saturday.
It kills me to think that just Tuesday, Nola and Charlotte were romping in the yard. Now Nola lays alone on my bed, quiet and tail still. And Charlotte lays, covered by dirt and dried roses.

It rained hard almost all day yesterday, but just before sunset the clouds part to reveal the beautiful blue sky. Then as night fell, I saw out my window a small, but blazingly bright, star.
Charlotte.
Love and Thank you,
Dachshund Mommy and Nola
















Run free, Charlotte, run free. Until we meet again, Mouse, we love and miss you!!

55 comments:

  1. This is such a beautiful tribute to Charlotte and so heartbreaking all at the same time. I had to get a box of tissues to finish reading it.

    Life will be so different for everyone in your home without Charlotte romping about. But Charlotte has a new home now...one that she will never leave. She'll always be safe in your heart and the hearts of all who loved her.

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  2. I'm not even going to pretend I know how you all feel right now. Yes, I too have been through it like so many others but each furbaby is different and the times and memories shared are yours alone. This was a beautiful tribute and I am have a hard time seeing through the tears to write this. The poem and pictures are beautiful but your comment about the star still has a lump in my throat. Charlotte will be in your hearts forever.

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  3. That was so sweet and now mom sits here crying!! Our hearts break for you and Nola. I remember when Addy moved, I was just at a loss. She was my best buddy and like you, I just laid around, didnt eat, didnt play with toys etc. You never forget but with time, I am ok. Charlotte will always be in your heart!! Prayers coming your way to you Nola and your family!!

    loving wags
    Jazzi

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  4. Charlotte was just such a little doll. It is always very hard to lose a beloved pet, but when it is so sudden and she was so very young, it has to be beyond heartbreaking. We know the loss is tremendous in your lives and hearts. She wasn't with you long but she left a lot of happy memories. Mega hugs to you.

    Woos - Phantom, Thunder, Ciara, and Lightning and Mom

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  5. Lovely tribute and we feel your sadness and wish we could make you feel better. Time will heal but we never forget!
    Best wishes Molly

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  6. She was a beautiful little dog and we can't make your sadness at this tragedy any less at this time. But try to remember; she had a better 6 months on this earth than a lot of dogs have in 6 years. And that is down to you. Thinking of you, Deccy & Mums x

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  7. If we could spare you this pain, we would. Charlotte is an angel and will always be in our hearts. If there is anything we can do, please let us know.

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  8. We are so sorry for your loss.

    {{{HUGS}}}

    prrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrs and gentle tail wags,
    Zeke, Sushi and Tiger Lily

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  9. I'm so sorry about Charlotte :( You and Nola will be in my thoughts.

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  10. Such a sweet tribute... I'm crying with you.
    You all are in our thoughts and prayers.


    Shelle, Milo, Dixie and Newby

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  11. Tears are falling as I write this....it is so hard to say goodbye to those we love....RIP Charlotte....until we meet again....

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  12. My heart and thoughts is with you, Nola and Nola's mama. I no knows why these great sadnesses has to happen - none of us does. But I knowed that Charlotte had the best life that she could ever has, no matter how long. She had lovings, and she was happy, and someday you will meets her again.

    Love,
    Reuben

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  13. It´s a while since I hopped in your lovely blog. I was so sad to read what happend and the tears fell. What happende? I didnt understand skink and tried to translate it on Google but no swedish word came up.
    It´s very hard when a little puppy has to go....I´m sure she´s watching out for Nola at Rainbow Bridge
    Look at the link
    http://www.indigo.org/rainbowbridge_ver2.html

    We think of you. The Lindsjö Dachshunds, Ayla, Tyra, Vilja, Trym and Konjak with their Mum and Dad
    Hugs from Sweden

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  14. Oh goodness. We have never visitied you before, but just learned of the passing of little Charlotte. We are so very sorry. It is always hard on our humans to lose use, but when one so young passes it is extra hard. Take heart in the fact that she is all healed and running around over the bridge. We firmly believe that you will see her again one day. We are sending purrs and gentle headbutts to all of you in this sorrowful time.

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  15. We haven't visited your blog before, but saw a message about what had happened on Cat Blogosphere and are stopping by to offer our love and thoughts at this time. You have done a beautiful tribute to Charlotte.

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  16. A beautiful tribute. Nola is in mourning right with you. When my Yoda passed, Brutus took it hard and he kept going to the spot where Yoda passed away for several weeks. I still get choked up when I think or talk about Yoda - we all understand and this great blogger community is here to support you.

    Pugs & Kisses,

    Cindy, Brutus & Ellie

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  17. Dachshund Mommy and Nola,
    Your tribute to Charlotte brought tears to our eyes, and while nothing we do can ever bring Charlotte back, we will always have the wonderful memories that will live on forever and ever. This is such a difficult period and it's perfectly fine for you to vent. In fact, it is encouraged. We, your blogging family is here for you.
    We're sending lots of hugs and love to everyone in your family.
    Much love, The Furries and their Mommy.

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  18. In our DARKEST times Blogville Shines like a Star peeking through on a cloudy night. I KNOW that you are dealing with a LOT right now but I hope that you read Mango's blog today. It may well Help to ease this difficult time.
    We are HERE for you.

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  19. What a beautiful post. I was crying before I got past your header. My heart goes out to you and to little Nola, what an unbearable shock you have had to endure.
    I love the pictures of Charlotte, her personality and love comes shining through in them all.
    All our love to you.
    Lynne and the kids x

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  20. Such a touching post! Tears are coming again.
    May your family remember the love from Charlotte and the hurt diminish.

    Drools and licks,
    Minnie, Mack and foster Mario

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  21. We are heartbroken, Nola. We are so sad for you and your family! We are just now catching up with our friends blogs and read the news. We dedicated a post to Charlotte. Your header is so sweet but so sad it makes Lady cry. Hang on to the good stuff, and do allow yourself to grieve this terrible loss. It's the first step in healing. If I could reach you, I'd give you one of my new toys.

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  22. Dachshund Mommy & My BFF Nola, Your post today was so beautiful but at the same time, is ripping out our hearts again. We wish we could be there to give you comforting licks and hugs at this most difficult time.

    You are in always our hearts and pray that you can feel our love across the many miles. When we look up at the nights sky tonight, we will blow gentle kisses to our newest Angel Charlotte up in Heaven.

    Love you Nola!
    Lily Belle

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  23. Such a beautiful, yet heartbreaking post! Keep precious Charlotte's memories near to your heart.
    You all remain in our thoughts and prayers.
    Stewey

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  24. I just read about Charlotte on Minnie and Mack's blog - their blog came up on my sidebar about another one at the Bridge and I thought it was about Hank, a pug who passed this morning. But Hank had lived nearly 13 years while Charlotte, just a wee pup! My thoughts and prayers for you and your family at this sad time ::hugs::

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  25. Dear Nola and Family,

    I am so deeply sorry for the loss of your beautiful girl Charlotte. Your tribute was incredibly beautiful and touching. The poem is beautiful. And the photo of the evening star of Charlotte brought chills to me, so beautiful!

    Charlotte was so sweet and pretty, and we can't even begin to understand how empty your hearts feel right now. Our thoughts and prayers are with you as you go through this difficult time.

    Our heartfelt sympathies,

    K and Suka

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  26. I have been trying for hours to find the right words to say here but I am at a loss. There are no words to comfort you but I hope you know our hearts are with you all during this time...and my heart is better than my words.
    Nola Mommy, please do not feel guilty, you did all that was to be done for baby Charlotte and she knows that. Her time here was complete, she came and did what was to be done on earth.
    We are always here for you to vent because we are all family here.

    Puddles

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  27. From the mom - I wish I had known all of you before how. I am just so sorry for your loss - Puddles is right - words are not easy right now. You go ahead and vent and rant and stomp your feet and yell out WHY! I know I would be. I'm so glad that I am here alone at work - so close to tears. If I was there we would be yelling and crying together and I would give you the biggest hug I could. Sometimes I hate my imagination or my mind or whatever it is that allows me to see vivid images - I can see sweet baby Charlotte - I know she knew she was loved and she knew you did what you could. My Angel Oreo was 16 when I had to help him on his journey across the Bridge - that was in 2007 and I find myself even now questioning if it was the right thing to do - all we can do is what we think is the right thing and hope it is the best thing. Life is so not fair sometimes - that sounds so hollow.

    Please take care of yourself and the rest of the pack - Nola may need a little extra loving right now - you too.
    Kim

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  28. I'm so sorry for your loss. Sending you, Nola, Boston and Auggie our love and prayers. (((HUGS)))

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  29. Dearest Nola and Mom,

    We just heard about your loss. We are so very sorry. I wish there was something we could say to ease your pain. If there is anything we can do please let us know. You will all be in our thoughts and prayers.

    God Bless..........Sarah, the Mommy

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  30. We are so sorry for your pain. Nola, I wish I could snuggle with you to help you through your confusion. We are still sending our love & prayers.

    Nubbin wiggles & hugs,
    Pam & Oskar

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  31. Oh Dears,
    Me has not been online for a few days and me just readed about Charlotte! Although no words can really help to ease the loss you bear, just know that you are very close in our thoughts and prayers.
    We loves yous very much and we would cuddle with yous if we was there.
    Kisses
    Nellie

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  32. Nola and her Mom,
    We are all so very sorry to hear about little Charlotte. There just aren't words to tell you how we feel. We recently lost a member of our pack, too and we miss out big Tsar so much. Please remember that we're thinking about you.
    Morgan and the Porties and Mom Sue

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  33. I know your heart is broken into pieces. The hole that is left gaping is so painful- I just know it.
    I wish I had the words to say to comfort you, but sometimes there are just none.
    I am sad for you too.
    Your tribute to Charlotte is beautiful and the poem - so special.
    We read through tears.
    This was such a tradgedy and so sudden.
    I send my love,, and blogville is circling around you in love.
    I will look for the star in the sky tonight.
    love
    tweedles

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  34. Dachshund Mommy and Nola....
    I love your Header Picture. What a sweet tribute to little Charlotte.
    I loved the poem, too. It was very heartfelt.
    Vent away. It is okay. We will listen.
    This quote from "Marley & Me" has resurfaced within my head: "Only dog owners can understand the unconditional love they give and the tremendous heartache when they are gone." We understand....
    Love, Raelyn.... And Rose, my BEAUTIFULLY UNIQUE "Mystery Dog"!!

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  35. We are so saddened to hear about your sweet Charlotte. You and your family is in our thoughts, purrs, and prayers.

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  36. This is the most beautiful tribute I have ever seen. I can feel your sorrow through your words and my heart aches for you. It is amazing how these beautiful little creatures of God can touch our lives so deeply. People who don't have pets just don't get it and they are missing out. I know it will take time and I know Nola will adjust, I am praying for all of you. God bless you and please vent as often and whenever you need to. You can e-mail me anytime and vent all you want. I understand.

    Anne and Sasha

    chicamom85@comcast.net

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  37. Oh I'm just in tears over this! I'm so sorry that you and your family are feeling this kind of sadness right now. Please DON'T question yourself as to whether you should have got another opinion etc. YOU, of all animal lovers, don't deserve to feel any more heart ache than you already do. Don't add GUILT to your plate!
    We are thinking about you all (the ones with and without tails) tonight, and praying that each day gets a little easier.

    Love, Erica and Noel

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  38. I am so unbeliavably sorry about this. I wish there was something I could do or say to help you. I am thinking of you

    urban hounds

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  39. Wow, they really loved each other, didn't they?

    This is quite sad. I have never known what a skink is. Now I know and I would have to thank Charlotte for letting us know.

    I do hope Nola is feeling a lot better now. You have to be strong for her, Nola Mommy. I hope our prayers and online hugs have reached you.

    Huggies and Cheese,

    Haopee

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  40. You're so right - it isn't fair that Charlotte had to go so soon. I can imagine your feelings... as I've been through them myself. The disbelief, the absolute utter sadness. Please give Nola a special hug from us, for she surely lost her best friend. We're all here for you, and we will continue to be here. Hang in there, my friend.

    I lost one dog in an instant, almost 20 years ago, to a gunshot by a drunk man. That was perhaps the hardest and most shocking loss in my life because our dog was sprinting and romping like a puppy (he was 2 years old) and then he left the earth in my arms (with a gun pointed at me - I'm not kidding). So, I understand how hard and painful this time is for you since Charlotte's loss was so unexpected. Accepting it is very hard. I am thinking of you. I wish that I could do more.

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  41. I am so sorry for your loss. Your post is so touching it brought tears to my eyes. I can feel your pain. I feel so bad for Nola. The pictures of them really do show a loving bond. Death is never easy and it is not fair when someone is taken so young. My prayers are with you and your family.

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  42. My heart is still broken for you. I know you all love each other and will weather this terrible sadness together. There are no words. Please don't beat yourself up. You are the best doxie mommy! Sending tons of hugs.

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  43. Still holding you close in our thoughts, paws and prayers.

    Hugs,
    Lily Belle

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  44. OH NO! sorry, we were a few days absent. we are now really shocked because of all this what had happened! i can't believe it! that' so horrible. i have no words for it. we are so sorry for you nola's mom and feel with you! our thoughts are with you too. that's so sad! i had to cry when i read the words.

    little charlotte, we think of you! you will never be forgotten!

    hugs & kisses to all of you!

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  45. We are so sorry...losing a fur baby is so very hard. Our thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.

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  46. i am so sorry for your loss, dogs are not just pets, they are family members. i can't even imagine what you are going through, even nola-they have the same emotions as humans do, so i'm sure she is just as heartbroken.

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  47. I have never met Charlotte, but I know by your words that there was no dog like her. It's just terribly unfair that this has to happen to a dog like Charlotte, especially so young. But I'm sure she felt comforted to be in your arms.

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  48. We are so sorry for your loss. Our prayers are for you and your family.

    The silvers and more

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  49. My mom and I are so sad about and sorry for your loss. Sending love and doggy licks to you and yours.

    XO,
    Lulu

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  50. This is so heartbreaking - I am so sorry for your loss. We'll be thinking of you and your family and praying for you.

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  51. We have been so sad about dear Charlotte. We admire you all so much and love your tribute posts.
    Love always,
    Tootsie

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  52. omgoodness. Nola and family, my heart breaks for you! There are now words. Please know that my mama's love and ofcourse mine are with you as you mourn the loss of your beautiful sweet Charlotte.

    We bring so much with us when we come to our beloved family. She was lucky to have you all to love her so so well.

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  53. What a beautiful tribute to Charlotte!

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